This is my Mary season.

I have been trying to figure out where I am, in my walk with Jesus. You see, I have just stepped down from a leadership position in my church, now don't get me wrong, God was calling me to make this step, but what I couldn't figure out is why God would ask me to step down with no where else to go. I kept asking  God what next, where do I go from here.

 Well let me tell you, God, once again, sent me a revelation as I was setting at my kitchen table this morning. I was watching the dvd, The Gospel of Matthew. ( I love bible movies) I knew I had tons of work to get done. I was away for the weekend so my wonderful husband and eldest son were home alone and boy did they use that time well. So needless to say when I got home I had my work cut out for me.

Anyway, I sat there wanting to finish watching the teaching of Jesus and thinking of how awesome it would have been to walk with Jesus, to touch Him, to have been able to hear His sweet voice wash over me.

It was at that moment, that I heard the sound of the dryer stop and I knew I needed to get up and get my housework done, but I pained me to think I had to stop listening to the word of God.

That's when God told me what I needed to hear, He gave me direction, He told me what He wanted me to do. At that moment God brought to my heart the story of Mary and Martha, and how Martha was working so hard to get her house prepared for Jesus.

How she was cooking the meal and getting the table ready, so everything would be just right for Jesus.

And as she was buzzing around the house working, she caught sight of her sister, Mary, sitting at the feet of Jesus, just sitting there, taking in every word that He said, smelling the sweet fragrance of His spirit.

 That, my dear friend, is when God helped me figure it out, this, this is my Mary Season.

 All He wants me to right now, is to sit at His feet, and take in His sweet spirit. You see at the feet of Jesus, is where I will be humbled, and renewed.

I had been asking God to create in me a clean heart and He did.

I believe that everyone needs a Mary Season, just to sit, and be renew by the Spirit of God.

 Now don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say, I believe in order for us to have a Mary Season, we must first have a Martha Season. We need to be busy for God.

Now we can't camp out in our Mary season either, we will have to get back to work. I also don't mean that I am not going to be busy doing the work Jesus has called me to do, I will. I love my youth class, and I'm thankful He did't ask me to give that up.

It's just that right now, it's someone else's Martha Season. John the Baptist said "He must increase, but I must decrease." (John 3:30) I am in no way comparing myself to John, but there are times when we, out of the love in our hearts for Jesus, and the work He wants us to do, want other Christians to learn the ropes of being leaders.

After all, that is the Great Commission, that's what Jesus told His disciples, to go tell people about Him, and to teach them so they can teach others.

So here I am, in my Mary Season, and I am going to enjoy the new spirit God is going to bless me with. I also am thankful for the wonderful Christian sister that will be taking my place. God is going to use her in a mighty way.

I love you, sis.

What will He say about me..

I had a thought one day of what I want my tombstone to say. Yes, thats a morbid thought, I know, but what can I say, I was just glad I wasn't thinking about dirty clothes, dishes, diapers, floors, ect. Anyway.  I was thinking of all the tombstones that I have seen, and have read, and some were meaningful, others were short-n-sweet, so I wanted to plan what mine would say. I didn't want to leave it up to my kids or husband, not because of the grief they would be going through, but I can only imagine what they would say about me. Anyhow, this is how I would like my stone to read, "Loving wife, mom, daughter, sister, friend" but the more I thought about this I came to the conclusion, it isn't going to matter how my tombstone reads, I need to be concerned about what my fanily and friends say about me now. I need to know now that I make my husband proud that he married me, that I'm true to him, and treat him with the upmost respect and honor that he deserves. I want to know that my kids respect me, and even though I am not a perfect mom, I love them, and I try my best to be a good mom to them. I want to know that my parents are also proud of me, and the woman I am today, even if I had a rough start at doing things God's way. I also have a brother, and I mant to know that he is glad we share, or shared, the same last name. As for my friends I would like them to say that, I am always there for them if not in person, in prayer, that I'm loyal, and encouraging. I would love think that those things are being thought about me, and not for the glory that I would get, but for the glory God would get, becaue for those things to be said about me I have to be, first and foremost, a daughter that my Heavenly Father, my sweet precious Jesus Christ, can be proud of.  

"A good name is to be choosen rather than great riches, Loving favor than silver and gold"
                                           Proverbs 22:1

"Charm is deceitful and beauty is passing, But a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised."
                                            Proverbs 31:30